I’ll be fine without you, but you are still here

Dear Debt,

I have to forget about you tonight. Forget about responsibility, forget about money, forget about time. Just for a minute. Ok? I’m still recovering from all the work I did to try to get rid of you. I’m still tired. I’m still eager. I’m still lost. I just need to re-fresh.

I have to be me. I can’t deal with the pressure anymore. I have to go one day, one minute without thinking of you.

I know your ego can’t handle it, but I’m a person, too. I’m working hard. I’m trying. I’m up and down. Sometimes I feel like screaming at the top of my lungs about my successes and other times I feel like hiding; not talking to anyone. This is not important. This is ridiculous. Who am I kidding anyway? Surely, not you.

I don’t want to share my thoughts. I don’t want to share my opinions.

I am sick of talking about you. For someone who doesn’t matter to me, why do you matter so much?

I will see you in my dreams.

Love,
Melanie

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Melanie Lockert is the founder of the blog and author of the book, Dear Debt. Through her blog, she chronicled her journey out of $81,000 in student loan debt. She is also the co-founder of the Lola Retreat, which helps bold women face their fears, own their dreams and figure out a plan to be in control of their finances. She is passionate about empowering women, helping others get out of debt, and focuses on the intersection of debt and mental health. Every September she organizes a Suicide Prevention Awareness Blog Tour, to help share resources for those struggling with debt and suicide. In addition to her love of personal finance, art and music, she is also a karaoke master and a cat mom to Miles and Thelonious.

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